Thursday, September 22, 2016
Here is a new chapter!!! Sisterhood!
Tuesday, September 1, 2015
7 years surviving and thriving
My health.
If your just starting your journey through breast cancer, barrel through and live!
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Friday, November 26, 2010
period after Chemo.......
just when you think your gonna be normal...
something zaps you.
2 years post surgery ...
Chemo done in Feb. 09
no period since Jam 09 from the chemo...
Now I have it again. not real normal as far as a normal period...
The doctors want a pelvic Ultrasound
but don't really think its an issue. I know there is a 50/50 chance something else is wrong. BUt It will be handled when I know I need to do something.
Until then.....in case you were wondering or going through the same thing, a huge percentage of pre menopausal women have ovaries that kick back in.
I don't think the doctor wants them to because of the estrogen. If it is nothing, I will get another medication to stop the ovaries from working.
anyway its a holiday weekend so no Ultrasound til next week.
I will let you know whats up as soon as I know.
Monday, September 6, 2010
one more clear year.i know you want to see my hair
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Saturday, December 12, 2009
i am well
there is nothing I am afraid to of now except getting cancer again. So I fight like hell and do the right things. Exercise, eat well, drink green tea...organic foods....
I speak sweeter.....I want to love deeper..but I dont want to hurt anyone..I am trying anything that crosses my path....I jumped off a bridge because I could.....I ran a marathon because I can. I make new friends everyday...I help anyone I can....and I have learned to say no when it suits me. I work long hours and I leave early.....I go on trips anywhere......even when I had no hair.......I want to see Paris........I want to have Paris.....and Austraila and anywhere warm........
Thursday, August 27, 2009
Thursday, July 16, 2009
Friday, June 12, 2009
HALICONIAS too
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A Vanda has arrived
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Thursday, June 11, 2009
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Sunday, June 7, 2009
Brett s new job
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Monday, May 25, 2009
Happy Birthday Kyle
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Sunday, May 24, 2009
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Tuesday, May 19, 2009
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Sunday, May 17, 2009
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Friday, May 15, 2009
last 8 radiations are less intense....
This is one of the last 8 treatments I am done on Monday, the 18th, 2009. Then I see the Dr. and get a mammogram and the ok to go to work and I move on.....
I am focusing on going back to work. I went in yesterday and spent the day there. It was sooo good to see everyone. I got so many true hugs, I am touched. These are some more of my guarding Angels and they want me back soon. Yea. That means so much.
Sunday, May 10, 2009
I am thankful
Happy Motherr s Day. we are blessed to have and Be Mothers.
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Wednesday, April 29, 2009
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Monday, April 27, 2009
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Sunday, April 26, 2009
orlando Volleyball
I took Tyler to Orlando for the final vb tournament. Her team did well. Thet got the Gold and went on to the semi finals and placed third. Out of 44 teams. Wow. They play a lot of games Sat and Sun. We went to City Walk Sat. night and after the Sunday games we had time to go to the outlet mall and use the gift cards we had from Christmas. Thats were I snapped the shot below on my phone.
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Monday, April 20, 2009
Its still a Frightening Road
Thursday, April 9, 2009
what it is
Friday, April 3, 2009
Meet the Nurse or Radiation Tech
I think I love him.....
He is smart and warm and teaches me my KEYWORDS!
Thank you Roger Rabbit
Roger Seeks and Destroys Any an all cancer cells that Get in his path...Get em Roger...Get em
Denise the exotic dancer, with the dark hair, was the first person I met at Baptist Radiation Oncology. She took me through everything they would do and explained in detail what was going on. She has a huge bright smile to match her professional personality. She makes me feel comfortable and that she is in control. I think I love her too.
Blondie Brows is Chariss and if she wasn't one of my main techs, I would have asked for her to be. I see her as a woman that takes her job serious and mistakes are not permissible.....but she can take a prank as well anyone....and return one in an instant...
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Radiation at Baptist
Radiation
Karen the Volunteer Doral Ticket agent..Thanks
My son Brett, the 14 year old plays golf. He is on the team at Palmetto middle. So I arranged for him to volunteer at the Doral this past weekend. He was a Standard Bearer, he carried the scoreboard around, for Watney and Kim and 2 other pros on Thursday and Friday. Then he missed Sat. But Sunday, I took him to actually watch theem play golf. He was alone and I was feeling so guilty about leaving him but I really had no choice. Students get in for 10 dollars. My ticket would have been 50. So I drove away feeling sick. I drove away feeling so bad I called and asked my mom to charge me a ticket and I would pay her when I could. She called the ticket agent who made her call another number at the Doral office. I was on my cell phone and she called from her house phone. She called the second number and no one answered. She went online and tried to purchase a ticket there but she couldn't figure out how to get an account. so I told her to just try the second phone number one more time. She called again and I heard her telling the person who answered the phone that she wanted to purchase a ticket for her daughter. She went through the whole story about how Brett was a volunteer standard Bearer for the tournament and that I wanted to be there to take him around the course and watch today. SHe went on to tell her that I didn't have a way to buy a ticket so she was going to do it for me and that I would pick it up at will call. The lady on the phone thought that was so nice of my Mom that she offered to take a ticket down to will call herself at no charge. She had one for Sunday but was working. My Mom got all excited and in an appreciative way, told the agent how incredible that was for her to do. Then I heard my Mom cover the phone I was on, I could hear her talking to the lady the words were muffled. I am sure she was telling her I just finished chemo and that I was a mess right now. When my Mother came back to the phone I was on, she told me " your not going to believe this, the agent on the phone's name is Karen and she is a 15 year Breast Cancer Survivor. Well I started laughing and sobbing at the same time. Mom told this lady Karen I was crying and how thankful I was for her sharing that information with us and for the ticket she was giving us. Talk about being on the right phone at the right time. I went and picked up the ticket and found Brett. We had such a fantastic time. We saw all the golf pros and got tons of signatures. I really wanted Camillo Villegas, aka Spider Man to sign my visor...He is adorably yummy, but the crowd was so pushy. Tiger was there too but not so nice. I think he was a bit aggravated at himself. Mickelson won in case you didn't watch and Watney came in 2nd. Brett has a ball signed by him and he was quite nice. When we left, we went through the Doral hotel walkway to get to the car and guess who we bumped into....Camillo. Almost crashed into him and guess what he signed...MY VISOR....I did my crazy happy dance. HE didn't see me....but another man did. He knew what I was dancing about and just laughed. What a great day. There are so many Angel all around. Thanks Brett.
Monday, March 16, 2009
I took a break
I will be reminded every look in the mirror. I just have to deal with it.
I have another great story of one of those ANGELS. I will get to it.
I must first say, feeling better is taking longer than I thought. I am so tired alll the time. It isn't painful, just frustrating. Keepng up with everything is trying. Getting to appointments, making appoinments. Time passes and then its time again. So I start radiation Tuesday. The process anyway. They do a scan first....that's frightening....then make a mold and tattoo the spot...OK Mom said No Tats but hhhhhhhmmmmm when did I ever listen. always mom, Always.
Then the radiation is once a day for 5 days then 2 days off for 6 and half weeks. Why? IT was explained to me that the beam they shoot is to zap any cells that may still be in the area that the bad seed was removed from. So the beam will be around the area the tiny mass was removed from. sometimes its makes a mark on your skin sometimes it does nothing. Like a sunburn everyday. I saw some bad reactions and then i saw some patients with no mark at all. I won't know but I will keep aloe on the area at all times and see if I can prevent being being the one in 1000 that has a bad time. Most of the women who have done this say its a piece of cake...just some fatigue...great more fatigue......and a small mark towards the end....that goes away...NO more topless sunbathing.....shoot......and No amino Acids......what ever that does. I will have to get a little Reconstruction after...I will have a dent yuck........reconstruction........that means surgery............yuck.............uhmmmmmmmm yea yuck.....cross that bridge when I hit 40.
anyway....Oh I have an inch of hair... how about that....OK maybe not quit an inch but close....I have to go to the grocery store...hungry kids are coming home from school soon. I will tell you the Doral Golf tournament story when you come back....
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
My hair is falling out for the last time. Volleyball weekend
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Thursday the Great
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Coffee and a Hug
I went to Publix at 7:15am., because its hard to sleep longer than 11 hours so I got up. I sat in the parking lot with a sour feeling in my stomach and decided I needed to go home for a minute....I am not in a good mood because I feel like crap......I am nauseous...I look like crap......trust me I do........So I go home and get a shower and get dressed again...everyone is asleep or not home. I want to make breakfast for the boys so I go back to publix to get the bacon...and eggs more eggs, I am sure there is not enough.....and OJ cuz I forgot it last time....and what else.....you get the point?....My brain is on the blink....I am grumpy still.....
But I go in and get the stuff. It takes me close to an hour to get 10 items. By the time I get home, Brett is awake and whatever, he ate. No one ever cooks breakfast and for some reason out of the blue, someone else makes it.....must have been malnutrition. So I put the groceries away and pissed off I go to get a coffee.
It's Monday and most people have the day off. so its still too early for a crowd but there are a few folks sitting at the sidewalk tables among the tiny birds begging for a crumb or two. I notice 2 gentlemen sitting discussing business over coffee, one obviously has the day off, the other is casually going in. I stroll past and go in the door to order. The TV is on and they are talking about the wonderful people that we lost in the resent plane crash over Buffalo.
Crew members:
— Capt. Marvin Renslow, pilot, of Lutz, Fla.
— Rebecca Shaw, first officer, of Maple Valley, Wash.
— Matilda Quintero, flight attendant, of Woodbridge, N.J.
— Donna Prisco, flight attendant.
— Capt. Joseph Zuffoletto, off-duty crew member, of Newark, N.J., and Jamestown, N.Y.
———
Passengers:
— Mary Abraham, of West Seneca, N.Y. Trained people to use medical equipment made by Invacare Corp.
— David Borner, of Pendleton, N.Y. Worked for Kraft Foods.
— Linda Davidson, of Westfield, N.Y., nurse at Westfield Memorial Hospital and Ronald Davidson's wife.
— Ronald Davidson, of Westfield, N.Y. Worked at an adult group home and was Linda Davidson's husband.
— Alison Des Forges, of Buffalo, one of the world's leading experts on the genocide in Rwanda.
— Beverly Eckert, of Stamford, Conn., whose husband died in the World Trade Center attacks of Sept. 11, 2001.
— John Fiore, of Grand Island, N.Y., recently retired from the Air Force.
— Ron Gonzalez, of New Brunswick, N.J., director of a youth services program.
— Brad S. Green Sr., of East Amherst, N.Y., salesman for Kraft Foods.
It made me sad to think of these people just GONE.
They all impacted someones life in some way and now they are gone...who knows what kind of information Alison took with her and no one will ever know. What will happen to her research now. Will anyone find out whats really going on there? And now who will make sure the scholarships get to the right persons. Where is the money kept. Did she have a second signature on the account...all these thoughts are running a muck in my head....I hear someone say something to me but I am starring at the TV.....fine how are you I reply without even making eye contact...that's a reflex reaction huh! I catch my insincere reply and make eye contact with the guy from the table out front who is looking very caringly, directly at me. He said he was fine..then Looked me straight in the eye and said "But Really, HOW are YOU DOING? I caught up to him now in thought and said "OH...Oh I am great and getting better everyday...Thanks" His reply was "That is what matters the most, I did it for a year and I know its not easy but its....."I interrupted....."its DONE". He said "great to hear, I am done too, they gave me 4 months to live and that was Ten Years Ago" . "OMG That's great" I said as tears filled my dry bloodshot eyes. "Can I hug you" I asked as emotions took over my grumpy butt mood and turned it into a uncontrollable Smile. "Yes you may" he replied..as he held out his arms. GEEZZ I am hugging a stranger which never would have made sense 6 months prior but today there was not even a thought of hesitation. He knows what he did for me today was the greatest gift he could have given anyone. Its just an obligation and at any given moment we can impact someone the same way if we knew what was going on in their life...Its just obvious what with my bald round face and all that he knew he could connect. I backed up and gave him his space but I was still all in his zone with my radiating perm-a-grin....he was so sweet, he knew I was teary eyed but in a good way but he wanted to make it light..so he told me his Wife still thinks he is a pain in the ass...to which I replied.."she should be glad she has a pain in the ass still...." We both laughed and he got his coffee and ran out to work. I sat down and fed the birds.