My hair is falling out for the last time. Volleyball weekend

That's my Girl...

Monday is better...I am losing my hair for the last time. Some are growing back. My youngest told me and my Mom that he dreamed about me and my hair came back more beautiful than ever..He is so sincere. I know they want things back to normal..I am trying and almost feel well enough to make it happen. I can do almost everything. I am sure my white count is gonna go up any minute now. I am going to ask Faby for a deep tissue massage so I can really get the toxins out.

Hey I have not itched one time today.....I just realized that.

I went to a shamanic thing Friday. I had my chakras cleared out. My creative channel was blocked and I had some part of me asleep a long time and its just starting to wake up. She told me I was surrounded by all these frigging angels....hundreds of them....She is a Dr. of something I have to look up, but she was a professional lady and those were her exact words..I had to laugh..then I realized you all are those Angels I am surrounded by. All the prayers...All the Energy, all the Angels. I had my Feet done too thanks to a great friend.....that was the best part of my week.

I took Tyler to a all day tournament Sunday. I itched most of the time and then decided I need a benadryl. I had none....I took a atarax, similar to benadryl but I got real tired. well I wonder if it worked so well it stopped all the histamines? I hope so. I think I was itchy waiting for Dave to show up...he never did. His loss...Tyler played like Dynamite....great blocks and brilliant serves..even got a few pokes in on the money...

DO I have to shave my head to get the hair to grow back properly? Anyone been here done this?

I love my kids you know!

Thursday the Great

You are important

You make a difference

You are a light

and to someone.....

You are the reason.....they can go on....

they can do this...

they can..........

I don't like to talk about myself all the time.

I wrote this so you could be close to me

even if you can't.

And I did it for your friend...or your friend's friend...Your Aunt or your cousin......for the "ME"'s who gets the call from a pathologist...

In a perfect world I would never have to help anyone through this... there would be no Cancer.

But I can and I will be the one to say..."twenty ....thiry...fourty......years ago.....This is how I got through and you can too.

So That's why I write here and that's why I am glad you come by and read...[I know there are more than 8 of you that pass by (as the "Followers")] and look at the pictures...even the ones that were hard to face.......My cousin, who is on the opposite side of the country in Seattle has been here. My other cousin reads here too from Indiana......I love seeing their comments or even just seeing their nickname. One of them challenged me to see if I could figure out it was her...I did in about a nanosecond...

I slept a really long time today so I had energy to get out of the house.

I felt a sense of urgency yesterday to go to the ocean. I always feel better at the beach. Maybe it's the secondhand SMOKE that blows by from behind the pier but mostly it's the water, something about the water...it always heals, cleanses, comforts. BUT today, today the water relaxed and cleansed not only because of the clean salt and minerals but because it was So Frigging cold that there is no toxin great or small, that could withstand the frigid washing of the turquoise wonderland. The only thing really missing was an iceberg. OK I am a Miami girl and I am a sun person, warmth is endearing to me. But I needed the salt water in an urgent kinda way....so In I went....Once I got in it was tolerable....but it took a few minutes to inch in. ...and the noise you make when the waves hit your bare skin, it like a ...well the noise that come out of your mouth is a laugh and a pain all mixed in one with a dash of 'OH that Felt Good'. When your all by yourself....,Tyler was up on the warm sand (the apple doesn't fall far)....and those noises spontaneously and uncontrollably come out of your mouth, the German tourists move a little farther down to get in the water. HA ha.

The only real odd thing that happened there was the idiot who got so excited to see his first set of titties on a topless brazilian that he had to stop and take a pictures but he wasn't man enough to just take a picture.. he had to pretend to be photographing the "landscape" and then quick cop a shot when no one was looking. LOser. Geezzzzzz. OK the Brazilian girls looked as hot as the water was cold...but for real ...had he never seen a set of good implants before today...? LOL I got his picture talking their picture...you gotta love that.

Coffee and a Hug

Miami Metro Zoo Amazon exhibit Hummingbird

Ok I promised a story SO ... Here it is......

I went to Publix at 7:15am., because its hard to sleep longer than 11 hours so I got up. I sat in the parking lot with a sour feeling in my stomach and decided I needed to go home for a minute....I am not in a good mood because I feel like crap......I am nauseous...I look like crap......trust me I do........So I go home and get a shower and get dressed again...everyone is asleep or not home. I want to make breakfast for the boys so I go back to publix to get the bacon...and eggs more eggs, I am sure there is not enough.....and OJ cuz I forgot it last time....and what else.....you get the point?....My brain is on the blink....I am grumpy still.....
But I go in and get the stuff. It takes me close to an hour to get 10 items. By the time I get home, Brett is awake and whatever, he ate. No one ever cooks breakfast and for some reason out of the blue, someone else makes it.....must have been malnutrition. So I put the groceries away and pissed off I go to get a coffee.
It's Monday and most people have the day off. so its still too early for a crowd but there are a few folks sitting at the sidewalk tables among the tiny birds begging for a crumb or two. I notice 2 gentlemen sitting discussing business over coffee, one obviously has the day off, the other is casually going in. I stroll past and go in the door to order. The TV is on and they are talking about the wonderful people that we lost in the resent plane crash over Buffalo.
Crew members:
— Capt. Marvin Renslow, pilot, of Lutz, Fla.
— Rebecca Shaw, first officer, of Maple Valley, Wash.
— Matilda Quintero, flight attendant, of Woodbridge, N.J.
— Donna Prisco, flight attendant.
— Capt. Joseph Zuffoletto, off-duty crew member, of Newark, N.J., and Jamestown, N.Y.
———
Passengers:
— Mary Abraham, of West Seneca, N.Y. Trained people to use medical equipment made by Invacare Corp.
— David Borner, of Pendleton, N.Y. Worked for Kraft Foods.
— Linda Davidson, of Westfield, N.Y., nurse at Westfield Memorial Hospital and Ronald Davidson's wife.
— Ronald Davidson, of Westfield, N.Y. Worked at an adult group home and was Linda Davidson's husband.
— Alison Des Forges, of Buffalo, one of the world's leading experts on the genocide in Rwanda.
— Beverly Eckert, of Stamford, Conn., whose husband died in the World Trade Center attacks of Sept. 11, 2001.
— John Fiore, of Grand Island, N.Y., recently retired from the Air Force.
— Ron Gonzalez, of New Brunswick, N.J., director of a youth services program.
— Brad S. Green Sr., of East Amherst, N.Y., salesman for Kraft Foods.
It made me sad to think of these people just GONE.
They all impacted someones life in some way and now they are gone...who knows what kind of information Alison took with her and no one will ever know. What will happen to her research now. Will anyone find out whats really going on there? And now who will make sure the scholarships get to the right persons. Where is the money kept. Did she have a second signature on the account...all these thoughts are running a muck in my head....I hear someone say something to me but I am starring at the TV.....fine how are you I reply without even making eye contact...that's a reflex reaction huh! I catch my insincere reply and make eye contact with the guy from the table out front who is looking very caringly, directly at me. He said he was fine..then Looked me straight in the eye and said "But Really, HOW are YOU DOING? I caught up to him now in thought and said "OH...Oh I am great and getting better everyday...Thanks" His reply was "That is what matters the most, I did it for a year and I know its not easy but its....."I interrupted....."its DONE". He said "great to hear, I am done too, they gave me 4 months to live and that was Ten Years Ago" . "OMG That's great" I said as tears filled my dry bloodshot eyes. "Can I hug you" I asked as emotions took over my grumpy butt mood and turned it into a uncontrollable Smile. "Yes you may" he replied..as he held out his arms. GEEZZ I am hugging a stranger which never would have made sense 6 months prior but today there was not even a thought of hesitation. He knows what he did for me today was the greatest gift he could have given anyone. Its just an obligation and at any given moment we can impact someone the same way if we knew what was going on in their life...Its just obvious what with my bald round face and all that he knew he could connect. I backed up and gave him his space but I was still all in his zone with my radiating perm-a-grin....he was so sweet, he knew I was teary eyed but in a good way but he wanted to make it light..so he told me his Wife still thinks he is a pain in the ass...to which I replied.."she should be glad she has a pain in the ass still...." We both laughed and he got his coffee and ran out to work. I sat down and fed the birds.

the week of the last chemo

This week was not too bad but I couldn't write...My Birthday and Valentines day were sleepy......Tyler was out of town...My mom and Dad are sick with the cold going around and I couldn't see them...Rick was out of Town and I slept a lot..Brett and I watched every Movie Chris and Jeannette have in their collection ...and that is a lot......

I did go grocery shopping but a little each day....Insurance companies....supplemental........are so full of paper work it makes you want to give up.........I have worked so hard to get them all the forms and bills and Doctors info and they blow me off and want one more form.....so they don;t have to pay I guess........I am sick about it and fed up and BROKE and can't even get another prescription filled unless I give up a dinner or two so forget it....I can live with the sore throat.....gotta feed the kids.......

I get grumpy this week remember...

then I get ugly......I mean ugly looking......everything swells and I look like I am filled with helium...too bad I can't float.....my skin looks like like I don't know...I feel like a zombie....in the zone ozone.

I got a great story AGAIN...but I will type it when I have energy and a better attitude because it is a Great story .....of a stranger..........not a weird one in Kmart..........but just as good a story non-the-less.........

tuesday at Sylvester

we done

Tuesday I had the last chemo....

had anxiety all night.....I thought I had a stomache virus.....I will catch up with last week and the weekend but this is more importatn and fresh..
It was uneventful this time thought. Nothing went wrong today.....I am really tired....My WBC count is 4 but my absolute Nuetrophil count is 1288 so less than one......it should be 10 so I guess thATS WHY i AM TIRED.
Let me get a nap and I will continue....I love all the messages and txts I get and the fact that you remember the dates I go...it means a lot.
I will be back

MOnday

Monday I am back to normal......got up at 5:30am......

made lunches for the kids....washed clothes...dishwasher....more clothes............so let me tell you what happened Friday at Kmart.....

I started to clean the house and realized I have nothing to sweep with clean with, wash with, sanitize with, mop with,, etcertera etcetera etcetera, so off I go in my plain dress and slides.

I am shopping with my coupons and frugally looking for the best deal while still paying attention to whats going on around me. This guy is coming down the isle towards me and smiling. He is 5'11" maybe buff blond blue eyed and probably 30 something. I move a bit so he can go by and he says "excuse me sweetie" with a bit of a southern accent. I said no problem and he passed and went to the isle 5o feet away with. I still could see him out of the corner of my eye and I just started looking for the dish soap I had the coupon for. Then he came back towards me...nothing in his hands.....and said "one more time excuse me" so I moved a bit again so my broom handle wasn't in the way and he passed. OK this is where I start to wonder....He makes a u turn at the end of the isle...20 feet away....and comes back towards me...OK I am in a grey dress nothing sexy at all.....I got a Black checkered hat on and my alopecia cover head is showing out the back of my hat...You can tell I am having chemo and I think sometimes people smile at me to try and make themselves more comfortable with MY situation. So I always smile back to make them comfortable and let them know I am doing great. OK here he comes and I thought he forgot something. So I say " one more time again?" WELLL! .......let me tell you I was floored at his next statement....HE says.....to ME......"Your gonna think this is strange but I think you are real cute..." (ok can I just tell You I hate to be called cute...baby ducks are cute..babies are cute...so now I hate him and no matter what he says..it will be wrong.....but this is way wrong....) he continues with.."Do you mind if I watch you shop for a while?"...Shoooot me know.....all I could say is "YES....Your right....That did sound strange" ...........I walked towards the front of the isle where I knew more people would be. He said"if you not ok with that Just tell me to move on and I will."I kept walking and he asked me "So that's a Move on?" I nodded and said uh yeaaaa that would be a move on....So he looked sad and WHAT THE FUCK was he gonna watch? someone tell me...is that what foreplay is in Pensacola or Georgia? GEEZ....only me that would happen to...only me. Ha makes about as much sense at this graphic problem....algebra 2...

Sunday

MOTHER and Daughter

Sunday was a busy day...I am fine and decided the bubble was gonna burst. Tyler and I went to the grocery store. We had a blast.........but spent a bit too much even with coupons....She is expensive.

Nothing hurts today but I still itch and carried a frozen turkey around so I could hold it on my belly to keep it from itching. no one knew!

Kyle had a lesson on the half pipe and we BBQ d and watched the superbowl....GREAAAAAT Game...Go Steelers

Sat

Sat. is a big blank..someone remind me what I did.......@sharkwool

Oh I washed my car? I think and drank a beer....not in that order......Dr. said it was ok but not the whole six pack. He said I could wash my car too if I had help...so I hired some guys to help. SO I DID...

My hair is still falling out and growing back ay the same time....Its lighter but on the back where I can't see... it looks dumb! and I itch but not too much....

friday the 30th.

This is a carved Canoe at the Zoo. I love this shot

Friday... I feel like I am getting cold. My most trusted aadvisor told me I overdid it yesterday and I needed to drink and sleep....so I did last night and I feel great now! I drank 2 liters of water and wow....Than you PD.....

The bottom of my feet hurt from the Taxatere by the way. IT is a weird pain... it feels like both my feet bottoms are badly bruised. I think that must be why the nurses at the Chemo unit want to ice my hands and feet during the Taxatere. The doc doesn't think it helps so he didnt order it. I will ice one foot and not the other and see what works. You take me outta the lab but you can't stop me from research! LOL

It is already a week later. I am having trouble catching up here and I have lost track of what happened what day. I had coffee Friday night I think and got a buzz from it.

My white count musst be seriously low. I am still stuck in my bubble. I wash my hands every hour and carry the lotion around for the itch. yes I still itch.

Thursday-The week in a glance

I am sorry for the delay...I have been depressed and tired and insecure and whiny and blah blah blah...today I got in the freezer at Publix cause the itch came back...Tyler suggested that so I get in it...A lady passed me an laughed so I told her I was having a hot flash. I thought she'd a peed her jeans she laughed so hard....Publix is fun with Tyler. She made me get out of bed and take her to the zoo Thursday. The kids had early release from school.so off we went. as bad as I felt and looked, I did it and you know what....I felt better as every second went by.. How could I not. I will show you why. BUt I do need to to say that as bad as you feel after the treatments, the fatigue, the aches, the mood swings.. they are all tolerable and if you know someone or you are going through this, please know that it will be better.....it is tolerable.......You/they can do it. Keep doing the things you love because you have the time now to do it. Later you will be back to the grind....back to the "NORM". Rest if you have to. sleep all day sometimes....go for a drive alone if need be.....yell at someone you don't know in the privacy of your tinted windows. It will get better tomorrow. and worse the next day and better than better that weekend!

I got a great story next time I get on. This could only happen to me....but look at these first.

I slept Tuesday and Wednesday. I felt like poop! I guess that was good but boring. I have my sister-in-law whispering in my ear stay home away from crowds, away from germs, wash your hands. I listened for once cause I know she and Rick are smart and right this TIME. I love them.

Kelsey is Tyler best friend. Buddies since they were 3. Her mom is the best and has gotten me through so much in the 12 years we have been friends.

Bridget is their friend. We have known and loved her since they were in 3rd grade. 7 years.

Asa....Asa is Tyler's BOYfriend! He as sweet as they come and funny and fun and cute and happy and curious and adventurous and oh geez need I say more?

Here we are at the Zoo. OMG I Met Ron Magill...highlight of the year 2009! He was photographing a squirrel of all things.....HA world renown photographer shoots squirrel...film at 11. I think I love him!

Stuck in the Bubble.

Brett Asa and Tyler

Cathy and Jerry

Craig and I

Brett bad Papaw

BRett and Evan

I am stuck in the bubble. I can't go near people or crowds or anywhere I can catch something, although I do believe I could get some sort of virus in the laundry room. I have clean everything. all the clothes, all the blankets, all the sheets, all the rugs, all the towels. So now what?
HEy Randy where's my text today? you must be fishing.
Brett's Birthday was fun at the sportsgrill. The family was there. It was good to be out and see old friends. BRett had fun and won all the little girls in the place a stuffed animal from the machine. Kyle won half the girls a toy too.
ITs funny to see the looks I get in the place. God, and 2 other people, only knows what they are thinking and what they have been told. I don't really care.

What day is it? Friday. I.... yea... I dont like this feeling

I think I feel better but I am never sure. Things change so rapidly. My throat hurts one minute my esphogus hurts the next then its all gone. Then it comes back like strep. It hurts. Don't think it was this bad last time? Bread feels like sandpaper going down. and hurts for hours after. I wonder what my stomache lining looks like. I wonder what my esophagus looks like. I wonder what my cells are doing. I wonder what my body thinks I am doing to it. I can't lay down anymore. I don't really want to get up though. Am I going crazy? My house is a mess. The dishes are piled up in the sink. The kids are getting their bowls and plates and utensils out of the dishwasher. No one complains. God Bless them. The orchids are all hanging in the livingroom because of the frost warning. There is a lizard boarding under the couch. HE is outta here when the weather gets warm today. I am gonna blog this and finish it later. I am boiling some eggs. I think that will go down smoothe. I maybe need my smoothie. Tyler always takes me to get a smoothie. AFter school. I will get her to take me. UG I hate to complain. This time I need to.

Tuesday Treatment # 3

I am real tired this time. I slept 15 hours from 9:30 until today sometime.

I am trying to be positive that nothing will go cattywampus this time but I have a sore throat a bit today.

Drink lots of water they say and don't take vitamin c. I want to post pictures cus I don't feel like typing anymore today.

Karen brought dinner Monday night and we will eat that again tonight. it is yummy stew with carrots and potatoes. and a Great salad. It helps so much. Thanks

Linda Warner stayed with me all day and Kara came to make sure they gave the right, corrected, doses of drugs. I was loopy from the added benadryl and the other narcotics they blast me with.

I like it. for now.

I have a new boytoy! (The IV POLE is tall dark and Mysterious) I will love him for 6 more weeks. Then I will politely say goodbye. He can't kiss at ALL.

Weekend results

The girls played well but the division they in is a bit over their head. They were at the top of the last division so the coach decided to try the next one up. They won two games out of too many. it was good for them to see what they are up against. Try harder this weekend in lauderdale I think. I will not go but she has other Moms there.

MaryAnne and Mike were in Orlando ironically, for a Veterinary Convention so we hooked up a couple times. I was glad they were there and it was fun to have them come see Tyler play.

I felt a sort of comfort in having them so close too. Knowing MAryANne could break away from Galaga at a moments notice to get to me was way kool.

We had lunch and then went to the games and obviously had drinks (they Did), I had bitters and soda to calm my stomache. it was bothering me from all the antihistamines last week.

HEy FishnFaN this is for you

This is my HOmeee J
JimBo

Thats my Tina

Sat. Sun. Monday

Tyler and I are going to Orlando for a Volleyball tournament. http://miamielite.net/

She is coaching 11 year old to pay her way. She will look for sponsors also.

Her JV team ended up with First Place. Her goal is a UM scholarship. She is so incredible as far as her drive and her academics. And her support through this give me the most courage of all. Just do it Mom-Forget the hair...it will grow back. Geeze! She is the COolest. So we will be back Monday night.

I have My phone back and text messages are encouraged. especially dirty nasty ones. LOL

Friday

Harry Made a Pink Warrior!

I am A Pink Warrior! http://www.fordvehicles.com/warriorsinpink/quilt/

I am amazed by my Children and my Friends. I am learning so much. I see things so clearly. My spirit is awakening, my soul is grounded.



You are amazing

You make a difference

You have a spirit

you have a soul

You choose what you do with it

BE Amazing

Make a Difference

I choose to Waltz through life not just walk.

I choose to sail through turmoil never stopping to wallow.

I choose to share my smile when a stranger loses theirs.

I choose to cry in silence and never bring you down.

I choose to rise above ignorance, gossip and evil

I choose to be better than they say I am.

I know who I am.

I know what I can do.

I know I can make a difference.

I know you can too.

Today I caught up

My mom came at the crack of dawn (JK it was 8:45) and we went to Sylvester. The Doctors all concur. I will no longer get Neulasta. whew! MY Mom is relieved. Kara wasn't gonna let em give it to me. She is great. I showed the Nurse Practitioner the pictures of the hives. All of them. She believed me. She got the Dr. Gluck and he is so sweet, when you can see him. They decided

1. no more Neulasta


2. Benadryl before the Taxotere and Cytoxin


3. higher dose of Dexamethasone pre med


4. longer infusion time of the Taxotere


5. stay away from crowds and wash hands and rinse mouth for 12 days after the chemo.

I can do this. Dr. G says I am so close to being done. in less than 6 weeks I am finished. Just be careful for those days after. I think I will go stay at a sterile Hotel. with a big bathtub. Then life will be good again.

It is still good today just a bit rocky.

Speaking of ROCKY....She gave me a scarf..They have the coolest store and Wow are they special .. . http://www.fivesisters.biz/

wait till you see what harry did....

Wed. The jokes on me

ok enough happens here to stay busy without a job. I am talking to Tina on the phone and doing the dishes at the same time...(Raw talent). I turn off the water but it still running....out the cabinet below. Oh GReat. LOL. Tina assures me its just a hose. SO I hang up and do what any real woman would do...NO not called Jimbo, I got the flash light and I found the leak and I took the part off went to the hardware store. of course they don't have it and I have to go to the plumbing supply store where I bought the overpriced, way to fancy, "Grohe" fawcet. Whatever I did it so deal with it. They had one. $$$$48.00 WHAT? even the plumbers in the shop were stunned at the price. Shoot. Shoulda bought a Kohler.

Then I realized I have to get the blood drawn. I don't have an appointment. I "walk in" they say we are "welcome". LOL . ok then. I cleaned my purse and waited my turn. Everyone has the same story. "How long will it be? I am fasting and I am borderline hypoglycemic can you get me in soon? it won't be long right"? OMG. I am living a comedy session for the writers of the Blue Collar Comedy dudes. I love it. I just laugh. The way Dave laughed when he accidently saw my alopecia and my hives at the same time in the sunlight on the patio when I had to unclog the pool skimmer and he came home unexpectly. My Mom couldn't of warned me he was here?
oh yea I still itch but very small ares.

Tuesday two weeks after the 2nd treatment

My computer power source is dead. The desktop has 700 viruses.....So I put all the christmas stuff in the shed. neatly. I think it is Wed. and I am confused all day. Whatever. I have to go to the Dr. on Thursday. I have to have a blood test Wed. The Doctors may push back my treatment. I don't want a delay. I wanna be done.

I still itch small places and it hops around. I see other woman that have the same symptoms on the different disscussion groups but I don't know if they had Neulasta or not or if they took Advil or blah blah blah.....I am tired of talking about my woes...itchy as they may be.. they must go away now...after I scratch......
Uh So I what...I can't go anywhere, everyone is working like normal folks do....I don't want to mop the floor anymore, the tiles are losing color, I hate soap operas. I LIke to eat so I do. Just a little of EVERYTHING, and Everyone brings such great dinners.
I gotta go for a jog. I am back. I love to listen to the music and push myself. I thought I would take it easy, but then I said to my self WHAT? Why. I went for it. I am fine. My feet are good now. Especially with socks and shoes on.

I slept 3 days

I didn't get out of bed for two days except for Thursday for about 1 exciting hour. 8:oo am......the 160 lb mastiff is at the back door looking in. I sent the boys off to school and turned around to fall back in bed. Brutus is still at the backdoor but he is looking very puzzled. NOT at me no.....he is looking to the west on the patio as if he sees a ghost and is willing to pounce on it but it looks dangerous. His stare is so odd that I must see what he is looking at. I look out the door and there on the patio is Ford.

This is a FORD.

(HE has a heart Murmur, had Pneumonia as a pup, has demadex, skin allergies, a bad bite and now Seizures?)

Ford is Seizing? I run to his side and he sees me. He is stiff and standing there but coherant. His front feet stretched stiff out to the front like a paso fino horse steping in rhythmn. I am trained to stay calm in this situation and I just thought oh great he seizures too poor thing. Now what. I have Valium- I have Atarax....ha I have .....anyway, I lay him down and he is relieved to see me. He relaxes And I talk to him but he can not lift his head. His gums (MM) are completely WHITE...Egg shell white........Simon Cowell's teeth White....Not good. I grab the phone and call 911...no...I called Linda P. She is on the way to the clinic and had just text'd. She comes by and grabs him and we put him in a crate in her Truck. Thank God she was right there. I couldn't drive and I didn't know my mom was on the way to my house. She didn't want me alone at all just in case. Linda P takes off.

I get a phone call a few pills later and Dr. Block is looking at Ford, wondering what his pedigree really is...(the original owner's where duped). Ford is now fine and let Linda know what he is best at in her car on the ride over...no not a good trick but a manly trick he learned from ? Brett maybe? his Flatulence is a powerful tool. Anyway....(Sorry),.....Dr. Block and Cristina think I am crazy and can't see a thing..He looks great and his happy.....ut oh.....His Lip is swollen OMG... Cristina opened his mouth and low and behold.........Linda calls me to see if there is a Power Cord on the Patio with Teeth marks on it.

GEEZ. There it is... the plug for the ice Maker is half way out of the socket and it's wet. HE got Zapped...Brutus musta watched him Light up. Poor baby and Ford too. Only this could happen at this house.

LOL . I just went back to sleep for 24 hours more.

There are two Great Lindas I work with. Linda P, who is Dr. Block's Assistant and Linda W. Who I have worked with for 12 years now and if we win the lottery......we will live next door to each other ina different country. Friday My Linda Warner came over with a orchid. She kicked off her crocs and hopped into bed with me, don't be jealous, and we had a great girl chat. I was half asleep but remember talking about watching the Gators play ball the night before and win the Orange Bowl and I remember Hearing Danny Ponce's name andVoice on TV . (Linda was a Gator). We talked about the game and You. It was so great having her comfortable enough to jump on in. I still see her little 5 foot body in my king size bed. she looked like a little Edith Anne. I think it made me start to get over this. it took until today but I Knew I could get rid of this.

Sunday

Sunday evening and I am itchy but nothing like the week. I still think it is the Neulasta. The pharmacist agrees, not so sure the Dr. will.

I feel like I can.t take a full breath. Oh great....Is this in my head or is it real. Shoot I take more Atarax. control my breathing and go pick up Tyler. By the time I get to her I can take a deep breath. I am fine. I know I can have another reaction anytime now and if I stop the antihistamine too soon, I could get in trouble. Believe it or not....I hate taking drugs, any kind, I am not happy.

I have no hair Huge hives, bad lips and big fat feet. WHo am I...I still can make you laugh.

and I am going to be healthy in less than 6 weeks.

Thursday Friday Saturday..................look if you dare

This is half the initial swelling on my hip.

and after further review....No more pictures are gonna be posted of these hive because it is too

GROSS to look at. My feet where not yet fully reacting in this picture...it got worse. Fred Flinstone had thinner sexier feet than me the next day. Sunday I woke up with speratic bouts on my hip ( small areas) hopped over my body wherever they felt like being. they stayed 30 mins. or so then moved on..